THE GAY STRAIGHT ALLIANCE WAS APPROVED!! I was soooo nervous and excited and anxious when I was talking to the student government association. It's really hard to get up in front of your peers and try to convince them of something, anything.
I am very relieved, however, that it was terribly obvious that the students who got to vote on our approval as an official club saw the necessity of this organisation.
I basically told them how it is: there is an incredibly diverse population at our college, and if your ethnic group wants a club it is more than likely that one already exists. But historically, the gay population at this college hasn't been so much swept under the rug, but it has simply gone unnoticed by the faculty and staff. It is so important to have an outlet if you're struggling, to know that there are people out there who have gone through what you're going through, to know that there are people who will listen and who will care about you no matter who you are. (I will say, though, that my college has NEVER made me feel like I am unwelcome because of my sexual orientation, in fact quite the opposite. I know how hard it is to come out, though, and coming out for me wasn't even all that hard when I think about it. I know there are kids out there who need more support than what I got, which was simply an 'okay you be you and I'll be me and that's how it's going to be.')
So tonight is the first meeting of the GSA and the whole E-Board (which basically consists of the lacrosse team and two of our best non-Team Awesome friends) is so pumped. We've been discussing events we could host, and at this point we've got a drag show in the works and a big movie night. The drag show is going to be epic, and we're planning on having a cover charge and sending the proceeds to charity. The movie night will just be awesome because who doesn't love But I'm a Cheerleader and Imagine Me and You? And Philidelphia, but that's sad.
My Child Development professor asked me to see her after class today, which is always scary, so I went and talked to her and she was all excited about something I wrote for a "major assignment." She's sharing it with the rest of the psych department and she says my "critical thinking abilities are incredible for a sophomore psych major." I thanked her very much for her compliments and told her I think it comes with the territory, being an English and Psych double major, but I am still very flattered.
My roommate is basically going to kill me if I don't ask this girl out. She (my roommate) thinks I'm silly for not having done so already, and she doesn't really understand it, and I don't really know how to explain it. I'm a very independent person and I like having my own free space and time, and being in a relationship really cuts one's autonomy down. And, I don't need to be with someone to be happy. My friends make me happy, my classes make me happy, going to parties makes me happy, writing and reading and diving into leaf piles and thinking and watching movies and laughing. I'm just a generally happy person, why change a good thing?
But I do really like this girl, and I would like to ask her out, but I need to scope out the situation a little more first. Allyson (my roommate) is the straightest girl I ever met, and she doesn't understand that if I ask this girl out and she isn't ready to be out yet, or to know that it's obvious to the rest of the world that she's gay, she might be horrified or resent me, which would make me feel terrible and ruin any chance I had with her in the first place. Al did make a good point though when she said "we're not telepathic" which is true, I guess. I dunno, I could be telepathic if I tried hard enough. :-P
More like telepathetic.
So it's been a great couple of days here in the life of Rachel :-D now I just need to finish my research methods work and I can get to sleep tonight.
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