Thursday, March 21, 2013

Greetings all!

Carrie and I started a new blog together, The True Adventures of Carrie and Rachel and you should definitely check it out. We will be posting about lots of stuff, including the wedding, moving, traveling, what we're reading, what we're cooking, what we're watching, and more. Stay tuned, we will be posting at least once a week.

I hate to call it quits with this blog, I invested so much into it for so long. I will be back here periodically to update, but more now I will be focusing more on the new blog with Carrie.


Saturday, February 9, 2013

Lost Time

Though I suppose it wasn't lost time at all, it was actually time very well spent!

I moved to Philadelphia in August 2011, after having graduated from college in May 2011 and had a horrible break up with Hillary and moved from Boston to Connecticut for a month in July 2011.

Life was extremely complicated for that brief period of time. I felt pretty lost and alone. There were times when I really wondered what everything was all about, if it was even worth it for me to go to seminary, if I really knew what I was doing with my life.

It's safe to say that now, February 2013, I still don't know if I really know what I am doing with my life. But I have never been this happy and content before.

I met Carrie and she changed my perspective on everything. If it wasn't for that nasty break up with Hillary, and those weeks of contemplating my life and spending a lot of time growing up, I never would have been ready to meet Carrie.

But she changed everything. It was like a lightbulb flicking on. Or like waking up from a dream, though sometimes I wonder if I'm not dreaming all of this.

When I lived in London I had the absolute time of my life. Everything was perfect, almost dreamlike. But this, this love with Carrie, it's so perfect.

Sure we argue, and we fight. Sometimes I feel like she is going to drive me insane. Other times I feel like my heart is going to explode with how much I adore her. She cooks for me, and take such good care of me. She holds my hand and smiles at me. She has the greatest smile! She kisses me goodbye in the morning. We have so much fun together, just being silly and laughing together. I feel content with her, and I know she feels content with me. I am absolutely in love with this person, the crazy passionate love that makes me feel foolish at times. But I can't imagine feeling any other way, I don't want to remember what it was like to not have Carrie in my life. And I can't wait to marry her in June. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life loving her. I am the luckiest person in the world.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Gettin' Hitched

It's really funny. I honestly never really thought about getting married or any of that. Lots of people spend their whole lives dreaming about their wedding day, and spend months or years making that day extravagant. But I'm just kind of like meh, if I'm married to Carrie at the end of the day that's really all that matters. Life has been crazy ever since I graduated from college in May 2011. I had been blogging pretty sporadically before then, but after I graduated, and had to abruptly move home that summer, and then I moved to Philadelphia in fall 2011... I just really lost track of things with this blog. I've said it before and I'll say it again now, I am going to make an effort to post here. Because not to toot my own horn but I lead a pretty random, weird, and fascinating (at times!) life. The wedding is on June 29, 2013 in Connecticut. There has been lots of drama surrounding the wedding, but for now I will leave you with some pictures of Carrie and I. As for school, I am in my fourth semester of seminary, loving it, getting lots of hands on ministry experience. I have A LOT to say about being a queer person in ministry, but I will save that for another time. Cheers, and I will be back soon!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

The Story of Us

Once upon a time there was this girl, then there was another girl, and they started talking. A lot. And they got along really well. The first girl started to really like the second girl, but didn’t know if the second girl liked the first girl back. The first girl was “a stupidhead” (Carrie’s words, not mine), and did something stupid, that resulted in the two girls temporarily disconnecting. She realized her error almost immediately.

One day the girl decided she couldn’t stand not talking to the other girl, so she got in touch with her, hoping she would talk to her but thinking she probably wouldn’t. The other girl was so happy to hear from the girl. And they reconnected. Over time they started flirting with each other. They fell in love almost immediately. After a short while the girl asked the other girl to be her girlfriend, and she said yes and they were both so ecstatic.

“And now they’re fiancees!” Carrie says. ”And they’re going to love each other forever, and they’re going to have lots of animals, and they’re going to have babies together, and they’re going to conquer the world. All because they fit each other, because they are each others soul mates. They are going to live happily ever after.”

Saturday, February 18, 2012


I’ve been getting agitated lately by people (especially women) who see no problem with the status quo, wanting to be nothing more than men who will tell them what to do.

Here I am, a 22 year old female, with two Bachelor of Arts degrees, 17+ years of formal education, having worked 5+ jobs in my life, pursuing a Master of Divinity at a reputable theological seminary in the hopes of spending the rest of my life in a “man’s profession,” i.e. as a minister of word and sacrament. Every day I have to fight to prove that I am worthy of being here because I am young, I am a member of the LGBT community, but mostly because I am a woman.

And it’s just my job. I can’t help being compelled on this journey. I don’t have anything to prove, but I know in my heart that I am making the journey easier for my nieces, my future daughters, women yet to be born who will never have to appreciate the sacrifices we made in order for them to be viewed as equal human beings alongside their brothers because that dignity will just come naturally.

And yet there are women, women my age, who see nothing wrong with wanting nothing more out of life than a man.

Well I’m here to say that girls, you can be your own person. Your significant other doesn’t define you. You’re sexual orientation doesn’t define you. You’re age doesn’t define you. You’re sex, and your gender, do not define you. You are your own person, uniquely and wonderfully made. Love yourself and know that you can be whatever you want to be. If you want to be a homemaker, great, but please don’t box your sisters into that same fate. Let us grow, and strive to be all of the things we ever dreamed of. Let us become the dreams of our mothers, our grandmothers, our great grandmothers, our aunts, our friends, the dreams our fathers had for us when were infants, the dreams our grandfathers had for our mothers. Those dreams can become reality in us, if we simply keep on, and never give up fighting for what is ours: equality.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Let's Try This Again

I'm going to try and start blogging regularly on this blog from now on. I feel guilty for neglecting it.

An update on my life: I just began my second semester at seminary. I am absolutely in love with seminary, and the city, and everything I am learning and all of the friends I am making. Truly this is where I am supposed to be right now.

I started a new relationship with a wonderful human being in October. I have never fallen so hard and so fast for someone. When she looks at me I feel like I am home, no one has ever looked at me the way that Carrie does. She is beautiful both inside and outside, and I love her more than words. She asked me to marry her on December 26th, and I accepted. We will be legally uniting our lives this summer and moving in together on my seminary campus in the fall and we will be formally married on June 22, 2013.

I am going to attempt to blog regularly, and hopefully I can keep that promise to myself. I still have a lot to say. I'm not the idealistic 18 year old I was when I started this blog, but life is so funny sometimes. I need a place to put all of my thoughts, my concerns, my worries, everything. I know a lot about the world, more now than I did six months ago, 12 months ago, five years ago, but I still have a lot of learning to do.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Allow Me To Reintroduce Myself!

Well a lot has happened since I last posted. A heck of a lot!

I graduated from college in May, with honors and all that jazz. I stayed in the apartment with H until very recently, when I found out she was cheating on me again, this time with a friend of mine.

Betrayal bites. But I learned my lesson, I can't be so trusting. And My UHaul days are behind me haha.

Now for the big big news: I am going to SEMINARY soon! (Future) Pastor Rachel in the haus yawl! This is a very exciting, scary, anxiety producing, but mostly exciting, time in my life. I am so blessed, so happy to have these last few weeks with my friends and family before going off to school (another 4 years, but I'll be home off and on).

I have a lot of thoughts on seminary, and on everything that has been going on in my life lately, and this blog is simply too outdated for me.

I've grown up so much in the last few months, probably most especially ever since I graduated in May. I've learned a lot about life, relationships, toxic people, my true friends, and most importantly I've learned a lot about myself and what I am capable of. I am so much stronger, and wiser, for everything I have gone through. When I get to seminary I'll probably send H a postcard thanking her for being the heinous c u next Tuesday that she is, lest I would still be the innocent and naive little girl playing house, giving up my dreams so I could stay with a treacherous snake like her.

Moving on.

All that being said: I am going to start a new blog, and probably link it back to this one but we shall see. I need a nice clean slate. Moving hundreds of miles away, fresh start, fresh city, and a fresh blog for me to write all about my new life.

Hope all is well out there in blogland, sorry I have neglected this sad old blog. But I am so happy now, so content, so grown up and ready for life to truly begin.