Help! I have fallen off the blogging bandwagon and I cannot get back up!
Being at home is not at all conducive to blogging, or doing much of anything really, because... well... nothing happens. Talk to me in a week when I've been at school for four days and I'm already ready to throw myself out my window (luckily on the first floor).
I decided that I need to cut back somewhere this semester, because although I do well academically, and I survive, college should not be about surviving but about living. Since I was at my wits end last semester, and I'm adding in somewhere in the neighbourhood of three activities this semester, something needs to be modified.
I'm telling my coach that I can't commit to lacrosse this season. Lacrosse is already on my resume for grad school. He already knows that I'm a double major in the honors program with something like 3 scholarships that I need a good GPA in order to maintain. So I'm going to be straight up with him: I'll make it to practices that I can make it to, I'll make it to every single game, but I can't commit 100%...
I'm trying to get myself psyched up for this conversation but it's totally not going to work at all. I'm super tough in my head... but in real life I'm a push over. Oh well.
And I'm dropping psychopathology, that leaves me with four courses and instrumental (which, amazingly enough, I am getting a credit for, this semester, after four....). I'm in a state of bliss just thinking about it... four courses... it's like a dream come true. This will be the first time that I'm taking four courses... I feel like such a rebel.
I've been "solicited" so to speak by my school to work at a Boys and Girls club in the city, by work I mean volunteer. I'm so excited, and so ready to do this. I feel like it makes more season for me to commit to this program than to commit to lacrosse again because I want to work with kids in my profession, and this will put me working with kids, potentially making an impact, bettering their lives and mine. It's very exciting, and next to impossible for me to juggle volunteering and lacrosse.
And working, I still have a job that requires that I tutor other students, and it's a big responsibility when you are more or less the deciding factor between an A and a B, passing a course or failing a course. And I am expected to do well in the four classes that I am retaining. And I have a life, I like to go out, and I barely went in to Boston at all last semester because I didn't have the time. I am going to stop letting everyone else run my life and start running it for myself. I am doing the things that I want to do, and no one is going to get in my way.
It feels good to think that, let's see if I will actually be able to do it.
This time next week I'll probably be taking five courses and instrumental, volunteering and doing lacrosse, working and maintaining a 3.5, knowing me.
I'm crossing my fingers and hoping I grow a spine between now and when I go back to school on Monday :-P
