Sunday, December 21, 2008

Looking For Suggestions

So everyone is giving me suggestions about what to do about my insane life, and I feel like they all kind of have their own motivations in what they suggest.

MY predicament is that I am signed up for five classes next semester, not including instrumental ensemble (which I decided I can't give up on instrumental because I have a vested interest in that class and I can't live without music). My classes are: Statistics, Research Methods, Child and Adolescent Psychopathology, Medieval Vision (religion and English) and Changing Familes (sociology). I only need to take four courses to be a full time student and to become a junior, and I don't need to take any more psych courses this semester. I have to take statistics and research methods, but the rest are electives.

I also play lacrosse in the spring, and pre-season should start just around the same time that we get back to school. Once February rolls around it will be lacrosse, school, sleep maybe, and nothing else. I'll be lucky if I even get to see any of my friends outside of team awesome.

So I know that something has to go. That something cannot be Hillary, it cannot be lacrosse, it almost definitely cannot be instrumental, and it cannot be Research Methods or Statistics. As a double major, I should be taking Medieval Vision as my English course.

So should I drop Psychopathology, or Changing Families? I know both professors and they are both happy that I'm taking their course. I am not very fond of the professor who is teaching psychopathology, but she likes me and I do well in her classes. I have never had a course with the professor who is teaching changing families, but we've been emailing (because I didn't take the pre-req for the class and I wanted premission to skip the pre-req, which I got) and she is a very nice person, we've met once and she told one of my best friends that she's looking forward to having the two of us in class together. If I don't drop one of the classes, I'll look into taking one or both of them as pass fail.

My problem is I overextend myself, and I think I can handle more than I really can. I can handle a great deal, it's just a matter of my becoming a huge stressed out monster or being a normal human being with a normal work load.

Lacrosse will be good, it's such a stress reliever and I love my team and I love playing. But it's hard to enjoy the feel of the grass beneath your cleats or the way the ball whips into the net or the tension of your fingers around the cold metal when you know you should be studying for three test the next day, or writing ten page papers. Gosh, I love life and I love living and I love being alive, but it's so difficult to remain in love with life when you are being pulled in so many opposing directions.

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