Sunday, May 31, 2009

Ten Things Ten People Meme

Got this from my roommate's facebook. One of them was clearly about me, and it was very honest (almost brutally so). I love her to pieces, and I love her all the time, but I don't always like her. We have a sisterly relationship, and I hope we can at least remain friends despite our differences and falling out. She really is the best roommate I could have hoped for and I'll always think fondly of her.


Post ten things that you would like to say to ten different people, but never actually would or could. Do not say who they are.


1. It's hard growing up, and it's even harder to grow apart from the people you once thought you could never live without. We're really growing up and outgrowing each other. Every time we talk I can tell that there is less and less to say. I can no longer honestly say that you are my best friend, or that I even have a best friend for that matter. You will always be my best childhood friend, and a lot of me wishes that I could still say that we are best friends. Such is life, it's not your fault as much as it's not mine.

2. I haven't known you the longest, but I know you very well, and I like to think you know me too. You aren't easy on me at all, in fact you're very honest and sometimes it hurts, but it's nice to not skirt around the issues. I wish you would quit hurting yourself. For a long time you've been one of the most important people in my life, and I DO miss you when you aren't around (and as much as you say you don't, I know you miss me too) and if something were to happen to you, I'd miss you so much that I wouldn't be able to stand it. You have so much promise, you could do anything with yourself and your talents. I wish you would stop wasting your money and your health and start improving yourself. Love yourself, please, because you're so worth it.

3. You've been a great friend to me for something like eight years now. I'll always be there for you when you need me because you're one of the best friends a person could have. I think you're brilliant. Scratch that, I KNOW you're brilliant. You could do anything with your life and I have so much confidence that you will. You just need to find your niche, find something that interests you, and pursue it. The sky is the limit with you. Have faith in yourself and you can achieve anything.

4. I think even though we practically live in the same city, we're not at all close anymore. I always put such a high price on my friendship with you and the other two and in the end, we grew up, and there is nothing we can do about it. I hope you're happy, I think you are, and I hope we stay in touch throughout this long journey through life, but I'm not optimistic. All I can hope for is your happiness.

5. I'm pretty upset about the way things ended up with you. No one understood our relationship except for us. I'd give almost anything to lay in the dark talking until four am with you on a Tuesday night again. I always went to sleep first, and I regret it, because you always have something unique and important to say, even if it is cloaked with sarcasm and a dirty joke. You're probably the most interesting person I've met in my life so far, and I can't wait to tell my kids all about you. I hope I can call you when I need a shoulder to cry on or a place to stay when I'm travelling by. Please love yourself and stop listening to what those awful doctors tell you, you're fine, you just need to stop blaming yourself for the things going on in your family. I don't like your boyfriend and if I were you I'd trade him in for a newer model, but that's just me. Be good to yourself.

6. When I met you, I could tell we'd be friends, but I could also tell that you had a lot of work to do on yourself. Unfortunately, not much as changed since I met you some five years ago. You need to get out of that unhealthy environment, which you're doing now. You need to be happy with yourself and love yourself before you start dating anyone. I think you need to get help because there is a lot going on in your life and I don't think you can handle it all. I'm here for you always, just a phone call or a two hour drive away. If you ever need to escape for a while you're always welcome wherever I am.

7. I'm so glad I met you last year, and that I fell in love with you this year. I disagree with some of the things you've done since I met you (that situation with your roommate last year, etc.) but I also have the time of my life with you, literally, and can't imagine my sophomore year without you. You really helped me to mellow out and start to appreciate college for what it is: a learning experience. You believe in me, and I know you can do anything you put your mind to, and I mean anything. You taught me how to truly love another human being, something I've never experienced before, and one of the greatest lessons of my young life. Thank you for going on adventures with me, enjoying good music and good food and loving me for me. I loved myself before I met you, and I'm glad I could help you love yourself, because you are so worth every ounce of love on this earth. I'll love you forever no matter what, because you are my first love.

8. If it weren't for you I wouldn't have played last year, I wouldn't have had the strength to start the GSA and stick with it all year (and thanks to you I'll be sticking with it for the next two years). You're the best friend I've made at school, and probably the closest thing to a best friend that I have right now. I'm so glad we're going to London together in the fall, I wouldn't be going if it weren't for you. You're the funniest person I've met, and the only person I want to ditch Hillary for to go sit in an empty room and eat cheesecake and gossip. Sometimes I worry that we're drifting apart, but then I remember that that could never happen because you know me for who I am and what I am and you love me for it and I love everything about you. If I'm sure of anything in this life, it's that more than likely, you and I will be friends forever.

9. I worry about you and how you treat your family. Daddy loved you, as much as he loved me, and there is a lot you don't know about the situation between your mother and daddy and my mother and your mother. I've always loved you and looked up to you so much, but you never gave me the time of day. I was 17 when your son was born, just like you were 17 when I was born, and I'm not going to treat him the way you treated me. I love your daughter more than life itself. If you don't treat the little one right, and based on your remarks to me and other regarding the new one (you don't want another baby, you're not prepared, etc. etc. IT'S CALLED A CONDOM USE IT) Hillary and I will have no problem calling the department of families, and don't think we won't. We love those kids more than anything, and I love you too but I won't sit around and watch them suffer or be mistreated. I've seen the change in L since H was born (and the change in your interactions with L, and how H gets almost all of your attention and affection), and she's not a dumb little girl. She's very bright and she has two eyes, she knows she's been displaced. This new little one is going to need love too, you just remember that. And be an adult.

10. I love you and think you're marvelous. Don't ever doubt how much I love you and care about you. Even though I'm moving away from town, and moving for good for that matter, it doesn't mean our relationship has to change too terribly much. You know me the best in this world and you have my best interest in mind, and even thought you might doubt it, I know you very well too and I do have your best interest in mind. But I can't be a child forever, and now I have to move on, grow up, take care of myself. I don't love you less just because I fell in love, I just love someone else. But I could never love anyone the same as you.

2 comments:

omfglawlzroflcoptorTimesTwo said...

all of these are touching and i think it's great that you're not like most people and only put a sentence or two.
i think ima do this...when i get around to it..ima lazy blogger =[ lol

Rachel said...

thanks jaimes :) being a lazy blogger is the story of my life so no comment on that statement lol